Monday, September 8, 2008

parental doubts.

i love kids, i do. they bring me so much joy. I have lots of newphews and a niece.
yesterday, i picked up my friend, Shelley's, children (7 yr. and 3 yr.). I offered to take them for the day because Shelley is very ill and needed rest. I have no idea how I can help, except in this way. They are precious. Really.
But after about 4 hours, this is what was confirmed (things I already knew, but it was confirmed).
  • i like things to be tidy. a place for everything and everything in its place. not clean- tidy. Therefore, i spent the whole time picking up behind them. i guess that is what mothers do, afterall that is what my mom did. and i thank her for it.
  • i can't be "silly" all the time. My best idea was to play Connect Four, at which the 3 year old didn't quite cooperate. I usually sing, dance around and make the 7 yr old feel like a superstar, but yesterday, i just didn't have it in me.
  • i do not like "The Suite Life of Zack and Cody," its not funny, and it's surely NO saved by the bell. i know, i have unrealistic expectations.
  • i like my space. not used to having kids follow me around, onto the deck, into the closet, into the bathroom, out to the mailbox.
  • i am not so sure I can afford kids :-)
  • kids just want to be loved and be at the center of your attention. Can you blame them? They just want you to play with them.

My sister always says 'Your world is gonna be rocked when you have kids' (her attempt to tell me I am not qualified, haha). And she may be right, haha.

1 comment:

jessica said...

you will be a wonderful mother. i have no doubt. God gifted you to be a caregiver...to which i have been at the receiving end of many times. so whether you so choose to have biological/ or adopted children you mother all ready...and you are great at it. oh yeah...thanks for telling me you have a blog!:)